just because were liberated by our love doesn't mean we dont still get sad. the worlds full of sadness, and nighttime demands its turn every time the day is just getting started. our love was a declaration of mutual support, not some claim to invulnerability from emotions. wed never want that anyway. our emotions are what make life worth living.
thats something people argue most with me on. it used to be younger people who argued about it, saying emotions dont matter that much, but over the years those same young people became the old people of today, who kept their ignorance, and todays young people seem to get it. todays young people are more willing to see the significance of their emotions. im not sure why this is. neither is issy.
its been a year since i started writing this post. i couldnt finish it. i just couldnt. nobody will listen, except maybe for bad people who are after us in the first place. i had just about given up on keeping this blog. i just wanted to love issy and not worry about writing.
but issy needs me to write. she says, as long as im not writing, my depression will get worse. that means all the things associated with my depression will get worse too. and it hurts her to see the way i can get. so okay, i said. i'll do it for her.
lets see if i can explain a little better this time.
an emotion is the difference between exploring the invisible darkness of our minds with and without a torch.
emotions are caused. even when we are not warned, when we do not know their cause, those emotions still have cause.
'emotions' is ultimately a modern word for the true manifestation in our heads. before my time, people just called them 'fears.'
no i still cant explain it any better. im sorry. todays post lacks the spatial structure previous posts had.
